Its time

Ecclesiastes 3:11 : He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end

Many years ago, God gave me a vision. That is to write unto Him. Since then, I have always been writing in my notes. I felt it was a way for me to communicate with God.

I always knew I had limited myself in a box. I always knew there was more to be done, but I was afraid to take the first step. I looked at my own ability. I forgot it is the Lord alone who has carried me through seasons and storms in my life.

This week has been one of the most hectic weeks for me. I had so many programs and work to attend to. At one moment, I felt I was draining my energy. But I wanted to just thank God. I managed to get some time to just write this note, to say thank you to Him.

I was grateful that the Lord did not forsake me in spite of me forgetting Him many times. Most of the time, when things are difficult, I ask God 101 times,” Where is He. Why isn’t He coming in? Why isn’t there a divine intervention?

The personal battle I am going through is not one or two years long. But it has been close to 20 years. I can’t share this with anyone. Most of the time, the society around me will play the blame game. I carry this insecurity, fear, and guilt deep within my soul. Only the Lord knows exactly what I am going through. The more I try to fix a situation, the more bitter I become from the inside.

Holy Spirit reminded me, ”Everything is beautiful in His time, RJ.”

Today, I find myself in the midst of chaos.
Looking back, the pain and sadness that have weighed on my family and me feel overwhelming—almost as if we’ve been forgotten.
But in the midst of it all, my mum said something simple yet powerful:
“RJ, just concentrate on yourself.”

I decided to keep my silent cries away. Learn to focus on myself. When I start to do it, I realize the Lord is bringing me to places. The Lord is opening doors for me.

Isaiah 60:1-2 New International Version (NIV)“Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the LORD rises upon you. See, darkness covers the earth and thick darkness is over the peoples, but the LORD rises upon you and his glory appears over you.

This verse resonated within my spirit all day. Today, I went in front to give a talk to a group of working professionals. When I was delivering the speech, I was just thinking, ”How come I can reach this level to give this speech in the midst of a chaos back home,” ? It is definitely the grace of God.

I ask the Lord to guide my footsteps. I told the Lord today, Give me a platform to do more things for Him. As I do things unto the Lord, I told him to take care of my deepest desires, that is taking care of my family.

I can’t do much for them, but the Lord can save situations. I was tired of struggling to just live an empty life. I prayed unto the Lord, asking for His mercy upon us as a family.

Holy Spirit whispered to me again,” It is time, RJ. It is time for you to come out of your comfort zone. You will witness the Glory of God in your life like never before.

1 Corinthians 2:9-10 NIV. However, as it is written: “What no eye has seen, what no ear has heard, and what no human mind has conceived”— the things God has prepared for those who love him— these are the things God has revealed to us by his Spirit.

‘‘Abba as I surrender my life unto you,let my life be a life of miracles and manifestation of your goodness in my life. Guide me through, surprise me Lord .Hold my hands tight, Holy Spirit. I will follow you wherever you ask me to go. I want to do what needs to be done.”Amen